Reflecting on the 2015 Muay Thai Classic

It's funny how I don't feel near the same need to document the wins as I do the losses. Probably my most frustrating loss to date. My skills and physicality continue to get scary good, but once again my mind gets in the way of putting my best on display. I'm torn between putting it behind me without a second thought, or giving it closer analyzation. The tendency to not show up for one fight, but then really get fired up for the next fight as the nerves have passed is something I keep encountering. I'm just hoping that it will pass with more experience. I don't see nearly the same stuggle with any of my teammates.

I was feeling mean and looking mean on pads in the warmup area before the fight, and felt ready to get into the ring. Then there was an unexpected 30 minute delay and I kind of lost my intensity. By the time we got ringside, I feel that my mind was running in the other direction and the fear/bicthassness crept in. Talking with a friend about this after, he says, "Now you recognize what it feels like. Next time you feel it coming on don't try to ignore it. Turn into the skid and confront it. You aren't a bitch. You don't fight like a bitch. You fight like a mean motherfucker who puts opponents down and tells motherfuckers to stay down."

Turn into the skid motherfucker.